10/28/2024
On 10/18/2024 i decided to go out with my friends and i had an extremely odd occurence. I sit down a the bar (Allusion). Karen and Rich are to my left and then in the last seat is a mysterious stranger and hes chatting with the bartender. I look over and we lock eyes and i understood the fireworks everyone always talks about. the entire bar dissappeared and it was just he and i. we talked straight for 5.5 hours. we continued the conversation on the way to the cars and we just kept chatting so he offered for us to sit in his car but when we got to the car.... HE KISSED ME!! it was life affirming! the whole world dissappeared and it was so soft and tender. Hes been an absolut gentlemen the entire time.
Saturday morning at 11am i get a text from him and we talked most days after that. he had said that he worked alot so i didnt want to bother him so we didnt text on Wednesday or Thursday of that week but on Friday i get a text saying "im at Allusion, are you coming down" and it was a repeat of the previous Friday. we just have the best time together. The only snag is he is 30 yrs old!!
Flash forward to 1/26/2025 and i have seen Adam three times and each times resembles the first, however, his apprehension is still very present. Im wondering if at this point i had the whole situation incorrect. Maybe im just cool to hang with but he doesnt want anything more than that even though our conversations have been very in depth and heartfelt. i really dont know how to interpret this but i do know that i think about him all the time and feel this yearning to be with him. i wish that was reciprocated. I am supposed to have a date with him on 1/29/2025, which would be the third month since we met. Im not feeling very hopeful at this point. Its crazy because my intuition has been very good in the past.... guess im getting older, im slipping in my old age.
