Life after love
life after death
Love after love
numbness after emotion
fear after the known
its all so unknown. how can i go from an independant women to somoeone who has no clue about anything. ive spent so many years forming the dawn/paul identity that i never thought for one second about when it wasnt dawn/paul anymore. I couldnt bear that thought nevermind the fact that he was 48 and wasnt supposed to die that young.
And here i sit at 53 years old some days feeling 25 and others feeling 83. The world is spinning around me and im just stuck in time waitin for things to get back the way they were but knowing full well they never well.
Step 1- figure out who i am. i remember who i used to be, but im just not that person anymore. The same Morals, ideal, beliefs and thoughts remain, however, they are more dulled and gray. My brain is like a computer and the one tab that is still open in the background keeps playing Creeds- whats this life for although i stand firm in my belief of God and that he has a purpose for us all
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